Seeking Soul Mates, Twin Flames, The Beloved One

This is for all those men and women I know who have known the call of the Beloved – compelled to seek soul mates, twin flames, the True One, The One…..whatever your name for that, and struggling with the longing and the knowledge of an amazing kind of love.

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Where You Once Were

Torn and tangled shreds of my heart

From where you once were -

when we were still one.

Tree-branch hands

Brittle and twisted

Thrashing in the wind

Reaching into the void

Beyond myself and all I’ve tried to be.

Crying out in anguish

Longing for your return.

No matter how hard I try -

Pretending courage and strength

Independence and self-sufficiency -

In your absence,

I’m always less than one.

Knowing and feeling you as

the missing parts of my soul.

And no matter where I am grasping,

My hands returning empty…

Like the place in my heart

Where you once were.

Surviving Midlife – A Map

Back by popular demand, this fall I will be facilitating my Surviving Midlife class.  Somewhere between the ages of 33 and 40, women begin the (often treacherous) journey from childbirth to birthing themselves.  Surviving Midlife provides support in understanding the many stages of transition on undertakes during midlife and offers tools to help women through that process.  If you are interested in learning more about the upcoming Surviving Midlife class, click HERE.  And, see the image below which will give you an idea of some of the topics we will be covering.

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To learn more or to register for the class, contact Lauri Lumby (920) 230-1313 or email lauri@ntd.net

Servant Leadership – Virtual Church Service

The Authentic Freedom Virtual Church service for Sunday, August 31, 2014 is LIVE.  The theme this week is servant leadership…and what that REALLY looks like.  Servant leadership is NOT about establishing our positions of authority, power or control, neither is it about lauding, defending, or throwing around our positions of power.  Instead, servant leadership is about using our gifts to empower others to realize their own greatness.  Servant leadership is about bottom up leadership.  It is about humility.  It is about serving others.  It is about being the wings upon which others may learn how to fly.

On a personal note, this must be a really hot topic for me as evidenced in the dream I had last night.  In the dream, I was applying for a professional position within a local religious organization.  I was told that I had been rejected for the position because I was known to hang out with the “unsavory” people of Oshkosh – the poor, homeless, mentally ill, hippies, rejects, etc. etc. etc. etc.  In the dream, I completely freaked out….and in very colorful language told them what I thought about their decision.  What did they think Jesus did?  I asked.  In the dream, I did not win the argument.  Neither do I believe I will win it here….at least not with those attached to their positions of authority.  But that’s ok….because those are not the ones I am called to serve.  Instead, I am called to serve those who find themselves without a spiritual home.  At Authentic Freedom and the Superhero Academy, you are welcome here!

You can attend this week’s service HERE. 

Relentless Longing

This week, the topic of longing came up.  Why are we, as humans, always longing for SOMETHING MORE?  What is this longing about?  Why won’t this longing cease?  Why are we never content with WHAT WE HAVE?  The answer, in short is God, which makes this longing a mystery and beyond the scope of narrative or prose.  Poetry, it seems, is all we have to give voice to the human curse of relentless longing.

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Made of Longing

Forever longing until we rest in God.

Prayerful glimpses of bliss

Sublime heights of ecstatic love.

Yet even in the greatest of mystics – these moments only fleeting.

In longing we seek the human experience.

In longing we find our return.

Seeking the most out of the human experience

While hurrying back to God.

Going out…coming in.

Reaching…Returning

Searching…Resting

Striving…Allowing

The constant push and pull of love,

Content within itself, yet always wanting more.

It is of this longing that we are made.

 

Get Behind Me Satan – Meditation Supplement

Agape Meditation Newsletter – Supplement to the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church service for Sunday, August 31, 2014

 

Scripture Reading:

Jesus began to show his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer greatly from the elders, the chief priests, and the scribes, and be killed and on the third day be raised. Then Peter took Jesus aside and began to rebuke him, “God forbid, Lord! No such thing shall ever happen to you.” He turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are an obstacle to me. You are thinking not as God does, but as human beings do.” Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow me. For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. What profit would there be for one to gain the whole world and forfeit his life? Or what can one give in exchange for his life? For the Son of Man will come with his angels in his Father’s glory, and then he will repay all according to his conduct.”

MT 16: 21-17

 

Additional Readings:

Jer 20: 7-9

Ps 63: 2-9

Rom 12: 1-2

 

Get Behind Me Satan!

Satan is a Hebrew word which means adversary or obstacle. In the Hebrew tradition, Satan is most commonly thought of as existing within us as the inner fears and egoic attachments that try to keep us from the path that God intends for us. In the Christian tradition, Satan is most commonly associated as a personified, external source of temptation – the devil. Whether we perceive Satan as within us or outside of us, the experience is the same – something arising which triggers our fears or flatters our ego so that we are tempted to stray from the path of our highest good, the path God intends for us. In this week’s gospel, Peter acts as the adversary, tempting Jesus to stray from his path. Jesus recognizes in Peter’s words, his own fear of death and the temptation to stray from the path of his truth. Jesus then reminds us that God’s way is not always our way and that we are to trust that what God ordains is in our highest good, even if the path or the outcome seems grim.

 How do you recognize the adversary at work in your own life?

Where are you tempted to avoid the path God has laid out for you by judging it as negative?

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Spiritual Practices – Recognizing Satan

The first step in avoiding temptation is recognizing its presence. The adversary triggers our fear, our unhealed wounds and tempts us through fame, power, and material wealth. The job of the adversary is to tempt us from the path of our highest good and to imprison us in fear and constriction. The adversary flatters us with delusions of grandeur and tempts us into believing we know what is better for us than God does. A good place to begin to recognize the adversary is through knowledge of the seven core spiritual fears:

  • There is not enough (money, safety, power, control, love, sex, things, fame, etc. etc. etc.)
  • I have nothing significant to contribute
  • I cannot (be and live as my truth)
  • I am not loved
  • I am not free to express my truth
  • I do not know (my truth, my path)
  • I am alone (or I can do it alone)

In the coming week, pay attention to when one (or several) of these fears is triggered. Recognize that it is Satan at work, trying to keep you from your path. Then use Jesus’ words to name the adversary and to actively set aside its temptation:

Get behind me Satan!

 

Authentic Freedom

The most important virtue to cultivate is humility, for it is in being humble that all of the other virtues come to fruition – temperance, fortitude, mercy, love, generosity, and zeal. In cultivating humility, we acknowledge that we are nothing without God and that God knows, better than we do, what is best for us. In living humbly, we surrender our lives to God and to the path of our highest good that only God can know. In living humbly, we trust that even the challenges in our lives and the things that do not seem to be working for the good….are. In humility, we trust that God is working all of our life experiences for the good. Humility compels us to turn to God for guidance and direction and allows us to set aside our own ego attachments, wishes and desires to God’s guidance – no matter how challenging the path might appear. Humility leads to spiritual obedience which leads to the freedom God intends for us.

How are you cultivating the virtue of humility?

 

Making Deals with the Universe

Your Spiritual Truth:

Can’t not share! In perfect harmony with this morning’s superhero report.

Originally posted on Ipsum Indigenous:

I’ve learned that the universe (or as I’ve been calling her lately, Mama Uni), is actually quite an agreeable place once we learn to get the hell out of the way and let things happen. One way to think of it is that Mama Uni is everywhere and everything, including us, so our doings and her doings are no different.

We are the universe. What we want, and here I mean what we really want, is no different than what she wants.

There’s more to say on that, but I don’t know how to say it at the moment. So, back to making deals with Mama Uni.

Once I know what I want, and I mean really want, deep down, down at my deepest level, the deepest I can go, that’s when the universe will step up to meet me. Sometimes, however, that meeting requires a leap of faith -especially…

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Why “Thinking and Doing” Don’t Work

In this week’s Superhero report, we explore the Superpower of Manifestation.  Here we learn that Superheroes can ONLY create from a knowing in our heart and why thinking and doing do not work for us.

Superhero Report Monday, August 25, 2014

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The Superpower of Manifesting – how we are super-powered to make things happen.  This has been an especially touchy area for many Superheroes as we have tried and failed to manifest using the tools presented through popular culture, and even through supposed “spiritual” books and training seminars, and God-inspired teachers, on how to “get what you want.”  Last week, I found out why these tools (“The Secret,” “Ask and it is Given,” “Thinking your way to abundance,” “Affirmations,” “Write it down and make it happen,” “Work hard and be rewarded…””God loves you so much….”) don’t work for us.

One of my teachers, Lauren Gorgo, specifically addressed this topic in her 5D  Report last week:  http://thinkwithyourheart.com/16319/brainpower-to-heartpower-enter-5d-creation/ )

In short: Superheroes can’t use their thoughts or minds to manifest.  For Superheroes, the power of manifesting lies within our hearts….more specifically, within our heart’s knowing.  It is our heart that carries the knowledge of our Soul’s imprint – the ways in which we are uniquely gifted to find meaning, purpose and fulfillment in our lives and how we are called to serve the betterment of the world.  Within that knowledge is also the knowledge of what we need to accomplish these tasks while having all of our needs met.  The challenge is that all the ways that this knowledge and the fulfillment of needs have been traditionally accomplished in this world (through thinking and doing) DO NOT WORK FOR US!  Thinking and Doing might work for others….but not for the Superheroes.  In fact, the harder we try to “think and do” our way to happiness and abundance, the more we get our ASSES KICKED!

While other people might be content in a life without meaning or purpose, and can therefore manifest through thinking and doing, Superheroes are not and cannot.  When we try to live this way, either we fail, or we are miserable in the trying. We have no choice (it seems) but to live our purpose, as such, in order to manifest, we need to know our heart and allow it to guide us.  Superheroes, therefore, can only manifest through KNOWING and ALLOWING.

KNOWING – is not about thinking, neither is it about the brain.  KNOWING is related to the heart and the imprint of our soul carried there.  KNOWING is about being quiet enough for listening, open enough for hearing and having faith enough to BELIEVE what our heart wants us to know.

ALLOWING is not about doing, but sometimes doing is involved.  More than doing, allowing is about getting the hell out of the way so that heaven can work through us in the way and in the time that is perfect for the Soul’s unfolding.  Allowing requires PATIENCE and TRUST and the ability to SEE the God-given, soul-driven, and heart-guided instructions for DOING when they do arrive, and then DOING them without question – in spite of how crazy it might appear to ourselves, and especially to others.  ALLOWING often requires a LEAP OF FAITH….and a bullet-proof heart for all the dispersions that might be hurled our way as we allow the path of our hearts to manifest.

Let me offer the clearest example of how I have seen this work in my own life.  This example is related to the home in which I am currently living.  Many years ago, as divorce became more and more imminent, a vision of my new home began to materialize.  This was a home I knew in my mind, but more clearly, I knew this home in my heart.  It wasn’t the house itself, but a feeling of what the home would feel like and a few of the key features (office on the first floor, formal dining room, minimum of three bedrooms and two baths).  As divorce proceedings began, so did the house search.  I had a specific budget in mind, and looked and looked and looked at homes within that budget.  NONE of them had the FEELING of the home in my heart.  I continued to look until a home became available.  It was a “fixer-upper” but a handyman became available that would make this house a possibility.  I made an offer, which was countered, I accepted the counter….so the house should have been mine.  But….the house was suddenly, suspiciously and potentially illegally sold to someone else.  I was devastated.  THIS was supposed to be my house….or so I thought.  (What I didn’t know at the time is that the Universe/God intervenes when something is out of alignment with our hearts…..yes, we can force the issue, but in the end we pay for deviating from the path of our Soul.)

So, I continued to look, sad to have lost this house, but undaunted in the vision and feeling of the house that was supposed to be mine.  I looked for another 6 months, never finding the home I knew in my heart.  Everyone said I was crazy and should just pick one that fit my budget.  My realtor said I would never find the home I was looking for in my budget.  I couldn’t explain it….I just KNEW this house in my heart would show up and it would happen in a very magical and miraculous way…..and that it might just fall into my lap.  9 months after beginning the search for the home in my heart, a miracle happened…the house in my heart literally fell into my lap.  A dear friend announced her engagement and that she would be moving into her future husband’s home.  Her home was now available.  HERE was the home in my heart – not at all within my budget, but I KNEW in the deepest part of my Soul that this was the LEAP OF FAITH I had to take.  The home perfectly aligned with the home in my heart…and then some….and the timing and process were miraculous, just as I KNEW they would be.  I immediately called her and asked if she would be interested in renting with the future possibility of selling.  Of course she said yes, and her former home has been my home ever since.  AND…..this home is even better than what my mind could imagine for myself and meets my needs in ways I never thought possible, and somehow, the means have always been there to pay rent, utilities, etc.

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This is just one example, but I can think of several others where miraculous things happened in alignment with my heart along with the opposite – where things were literally torn from my grasp because they were not in alignment with my heart (relationships, jobs, etc.).   The moral of the story, for Superheroes anyway, is to take the time to KNOW our hearts….to know what it wants for us…..to trust it is in alignment with our Soul and our highest good and that the Universe conspires to keep us on the path of our Soul….even if our response is kicking and screaming.  :)

Reflection Exercise:

In order to facilitate the above practice, it is helpful to remember a past experience where we received something completely in alignment with our hearts, using that as a touchstone for future exercises in manifesting:

  • Bring to mind an experience you have had in your life where you received something in a miraculous or wonderous way that proved to be in alignment with your heart’s greatest knowing – and proved to be something life-giving, reflective of your gifts and which gave you a sense of meaning and purpose. Perhaps it was a job, a group you became a part of, a particular course of study, a relationship.
  • Recall how that experience came to occur in your life.
  • Remember the FEELING of knowing this was RIGHT for you. Rest in that feeling of knowing.
  • Use this FEELING as the gauge with which you measure future opportunities. Be willing to be uncompromising in only allowing things into your life which reflect this feeling…especially the important things – jobs, relationships, schooling, housing, etc.
  • Trust that as you turn to your heart for guidance, it will never steer your wrongly. Believe that what is in alignment with your Soul will SHOW UP at the perfect time in the perfect way. KNOW that you do not need to push or force any of this to happen…..and in fact, when you do, manifesting your heart’s desire will only be thwarted.

 

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