How I Know I’m Not From Here

This is for my brothers and sisters who also know they are not from here.  The key is to find a home within ourselves, and to seek out the company and support of others who are also not from here.  But first, the dream:

Standing under a sunlit sky, a star-filled cloud, similar in content and form to the Milky Way Galaxy, hangs low in the sky.  With destination and purpose, it floats over and past me, the stars hanging from the cloud twinkling in silver light, tinged in midnight blue.  Suddenly, the stars begin falling from the cloud, tumbling toward me, circling and enfolding me in their light.  Out of the stars comes a voice, speaking my true name: “Aniyakah, in my native tongue, then in my human tongue, “Starfire.”  Surrounded in a double-helix of dancing stars, a being clothed in light appears handing me a drink, a deep blue liquid, sparkling with silver stars, “liquid starlight.”  I obediently swallow the drink – medicine to make me whole and return me to my original nature – “Starfire.” 

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A Stranger in a Strange Land

For as long as I can remember, I have felt like I was not from here.  Even as a young child, when enjoying innocent play and singing and dancing on fireplace hearth in our home in Sacramento, CA (where I lived as a young child), I remember the feeling of being more an observer of the human condition than a participant.  Perhaps this is the nature of being an introvert, but I often feel there is more to it than this.  I was truly content in this quiet place of observation while sheltered in the arms of my parent’s loving embrace.  But eventually, the truth of the human condition began rearing its ugly head and in these revelations, I realized I was different.  These experiences felt strange and foreign – many beyond my comprehension.  I also realized certain abilities within myself that other human beings did not seem to possess.  I felt strange, out of place.  And when others noticed my strangeness, the reaction was often fear, quickly followed by outright rejection.  The fear and the rejection, especially, boggled my mind.  What had I done to cause them to act in that way, other than being myself?  In this, I have spent much of my life confused.  Fortunately, there have been many who have loved and honored my “strangeness,” and in their company, I have found wings.  But even so, the strangeness of the human condition remains, such that I have come to believe that quite simply, I’m not from here.  Here’s what causes me to believe this to be true (and which might resonate as true for you as well).

Only Love

If I could sum it up with one sentiment – I have to say it is ultimately about love.  Love, is really all I understand.  Never in my life have I understood anything that is not a reflection of love.  War, conflict, discrimination, racism, sexism, nationalism, etc. etc. etc. have NEVER made any sense to me.  Why can’t we all get along?  The God I know is only a God of love and in spite of the religion I grew up with that wanted to present a God that might sacrifice, judge or punish, I knew only a God of love, and all I wanted to do was please this God – not for fear of punishment, but for the sake of love.  The same is true for my fellow human beings – all I ever wanted to do was act in ways that are loving and kind.  Yes, I have felt anger, resentment, even hatred, but only out of a place of feeling hurt and rejected, or in the face of human injustice.  Perhaps I have been tempted by thoughts of karmic revenge, but ultimately, I wish only love and always seek to be healed of my own hurt so that forgiveness may arise.  I never understood “mean girls.”  I was shocked and offended by violence of any kind against human beings.  I was sickened by any of the isms that humans use to separate one from the other – privileging one and condemning the other.  I just don’t get it….and hopefully, I never will.  Somewhere deep, deep inside me, in the place that feels I’m not from here, I know there is another way – and this other (and for me only) way is LOVE.  I often feel that it is for the sake of this love that I am here – and other ones like me.

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Gifts for the Purpose of Love

In service, perhaps, to this purpose of love, I have been given certain gifts – gifts that until I learned how to use them, often caused me trouble.

1) Inner Truth Barometer – I have an uncanny ability to read people – in particular, their ability to be of integrity or not.  I can tell when someone is lying or lying to themselves – pretending to be someone other than their true self.  As you can imagine, this ability can cause a lot of problems – especially in those attached to their deceit.

2) Awakener – somewhat related to the first, I have also learned that in my presence, people wake up – specifically to their truth.  Here is where it gets tricky, not everyone can handle the truth.  As such, those in my presence either run away in fear, or stay, feeling loved and supported, enjoying the process of growing into the fullness of their truth. This is where I must also acknowledge my gift of healing.

3) Empath – This one has been especially tricky.  My energy field is like a radar, picking up the emotions and feelings of people and places.  Until I knew better, I took these feelings (especially the negative ones) into my own body – subconsciously believing it was my job to take them on and my job to fix them.  In many cases, I also took responsibility for these feelings – thinking they were somehow my fault, instead of the reflection they are of the other person’s fear.  This left me mostly feeling stressed out, sick, anxious and tired.  Eventually, I learned this empathic ability is simply so I can become aware of places and persons in need of love, so I can offer them up for God to be healed and to heal the places in me where similar wounds might be harbored.  I am quite simply a radar, taking note of where healing is needed and allowing God to do the rest.

From Fear into Love

In these experiences, I can’t help but wonder if I’m quite simply not from here.  At the same time, I find I am here – in this place and in this time.  I also acknowledge there must be a reason and a purpose for these feelings of strangeness – for the marked contrast between the conflict, war, discrimination, hatred, etc. I see in the human condition and the unconditional love that I know is REAL and POSSIBLE.  If I (and many others I know) believe that there is another way – that we can enjoy the experiences of the human condition from a place of love instead of fear – than perhaps this is WHY we are here.  Not from here – but here nonetheless, for the sole purpose of LOVE – to help turn a world of fear into a world of LOVE.

Who is with me?

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Showing Us The Way Home

This Sunday’s Authentic Freedom Virtual Church service is LIVE.

The theme this week is Jesus – calling forth the one who shows us the way to go home.

Attend this week’s service HERE. 

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An Expression of Gratitude

Dear Readers:

004To say that I am grateful for your presence, would be an understatement.  For the past 20 years, I have tried to listen to the guidance of Spirit and through this guidance, I have launched this blog which further evolved into the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church, Agape Meditation Newsletter and now the Superhero Academy and report.  All of these I have done FREE OF CHARGE so that all who need these resources would have access.

Now I’m asking for your support.  If you have found these resources to be a source of inspiration, guidance, encouragement, nourishment and even support, I’m asking you to demonstrate your gratitude through a financial donation to Authentic Freedom Ministries so that these offerings may continue.  You can make your donation via PayPal HERE.  Or you can mail a check to:

Lauri Lumby

1103 School Ave.

Oshkosh, WI  54901

If you are unable to make a financial contribution, then your prayers are received with gratitude!

Thank you for your support of Authentic Freedom Ministries and for ensuring its continuing outreach.

Sincerely,

Lauri Lumby

Pastor and Spiritual Director

 

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Show Me the Way to Go Home

Through the metaphorical Adam, the human conditional was born, providing for us the (false) perception of separation and the sensation of having fallen from Grace. In birthing the human condition, we now know fear and suffering in contrast to the love and peace we knew “at home.”  Jesus (among other prophets) discovered the remedy to the human condition and through his teaching and example, shows us the way to go home. 

 

Agape’ Meditation Practices Newsletter for Sunday, November 23, 2014

Supplement to the Authentic Freedom Virtual Church Service

 But first:  a little humor!  :) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWQ-rnXi_n4

 

Scripture Reading:

Brothers and sisters: Christ has been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep. For since death came through man, the resurrection of the dead came also through man. For just as in Adam all die, so too in Christ shall all be brought to life, but each one in proper order: Christ the firstfruits; then, at his coming, those who belong to Christ; then comes the end, when he hands over the kingdom to his God and Father, when he has destroyed every sovereignty and every authority and power. For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death. When everything is subjected to him, then the Son himself will also be subjected to the one who subjected everything to him, so that God may be all in all.

1 Cor 15: 20-26, 28

 

Additional Readings:

Ez 34: 11-12, 15-17

Psalm 23

Mt: 25: 31-46

 

Jesus Shows Us the Way

“Since death came through man,

The resurrection of the dead came also through man.”

When the metaphorical Adam chose power over obedience to God, the human condition was born. Instead of the peace, love and joy experienced in our original state of Oneness with God, humans now knew fear – fear that then led to a whole host of fears and their resulting compulsions. Inside of our beings, in this place of perceived separation from God, we felt as if we had fallen from Grace. As a loving parent, understanding our need to explore and to learn, God allowed us this choice, knowing that in this choice, we would suffer and experience the burden of guilt for turning away from God. God, however, did not leave us abandoned, neither did God leave us to our own devices, instead, God sent prophet after prophet after prophet to help remind us of our original nature and to help us find our way home. The greatest of these prophets (in the Christian tradition), was Jesus. Jesus, in his own longing and search for God, found the remedy to the suffering of the human condition (the remedy didn’t alleviate the suffering, but provided a means to transcend it), and generously shared what he learned with others. Thankfully, some of his disciples remembered bits and pieces of what Jesus taught and others wrote it down. Through scripture, specifically a prayerful reading and reflection on scripture, we find glimpses of what Jesus taught and sparks of what he remembered. What is even more remarkable is that like the gurus before him and since, Jesus’ very spirit is accessible as a teacher and a guide to those who seek out and cultivate a deeply intimate and personal relationship with Jesus as the Christ. In this way, Jesus, himself, becomes our teacher – helping us to see the deeper truths beyond the words of scripture, leading us to other resources including human teachers who can guide us. We even find that Jesus can come to us himself to teach and guide us.

The “sin” of Adam allowed us to experience the human condition. Jesus helps us to find our way home.

How have you cultivated a personal relationship with Jesus?

 

 

Spiritual Practices – Inviting Jesus to be our Teacher

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Look at the created image of Jesus above. Let it sink into your consciousness.

Close your eyes.

Imagine Jesus, as you saw him in the picture above, standing before you.

Rest with that image of Jesus standing before you. Remain in this visualization for 15 – 20 minutes.

Know that as Jesus stands before you, he is gazing back at you with unconditional love and acceptance.

Allow yourself to receive that love.

Be attentive to any thoughts, feelings, emotions that may arise as you imagine Jesus standing before you.

Record any thoughts, feelings, insights received, etc. in your journal or notebook.

 

Authentic Freedom

In Authentic Freedom, we acknowledge Jesus as our teacher and as the example of one who learned authentic freedom and taught it to others. Every story, parable, lesson, example that Jesus taught, can somehow be brought back to the core wound and the resulting fears explored through Authentic Freedom. Jesus, while experiencing the fullness of the human condition, found his way to freedom – a freedom, he discovered, was found only in God. This is the freedom we are called to discover, cultivate and embrace through Authentic Freedom. God is the remedy to the suffering of the human condition. Jesus showed/shows us the way.

 

What is the suffering you currently want to transcend or have healed?

 

How might Jesus invite you to turn toward God as a source of healing and support?

Authentic Freedom is available for purchase on Amazon.  Learn more HERE. 

 

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Was Jesus Married?

In today’s blog, I offer a video post in response to the recent news about another “new” ancient document about Jesus – this one saying he was married and had children.  Was Jesus married? Why do we care?  Here’s my response and how I portray in it my novel, Song of the Beloved – the Gospel According to Mary MagdaleneBUY IT NOW on Amazon! 

(PS If you have trouble with this video link, try it on You Tube HERE.

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There’s No Place Like Home

This is for all my brothers and sisters who wonder if they are not really from here, if in fact they came from somewhere else.  I often wonder too.

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Faraway Star

A quiet people living in peace.

Joyful in life, work and love.

Supported in uniquely creative gifts,

Fulfilled in a purposeful life.

Hearing and seeing the truth beyond words,

Nothing of fear can deceive.

Governed by compassion,

Guided by mercy,

Knowing darkness and light are but one.

Aware of the plight of a planet in pain,

Desiring only to help.

A brave coalition sent forth through time

To teach those in fear how to love.

Arriving first on the Emerald Isle,

By natives dubbed, “the fae,”

Harnessing dragon and standing stone,

Beckoning all toward love.

Ebbing and flowing

Tuatha and Danu,

Fae Folk and Druid

At times turning into the light…

Time and time and time again,

Building the foundations of peace.

As shifting sands give way to stone,

With love to rule them all…

Accomplishing the mission

For whence they came

From the faraway star

Anu.

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Truth or Consequences

This week’s Authentic Freedom Virtual Church is LIVE.  The theme this week is “suffering the consequences of denying our gifts and our call to being a vessel of God’s love in the world.  Most importantly, this week’s service is about healing – healing the fears that keep us from living our truth.

Attend this week’s service HERE.   

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