Today’s blog is a little update, a brief weather report of the current evolutionary shift in the universe. If you are of the language of ascension, resurrection, new world, etc. and your current state feels as if it might be bordering on insanity, then you may find this of interest. If not….then please, carry on. :)
As we are deep in the midst of these crazy earth changes and working our way toward ascension, resurrection, self-actualization, a new world order, or whatever you want to call it, there is an important lesson for all of us to be mindful of…..the insanity we are currently feeling is only temporary and NOT our original, or even, our default nature. I was reminded of this by a dear friend as I reached out for support in the hopes of preventing a full-on hurling off the planet as a result of the chaotic blend of energies currently orbiting my world:
“When you’re present, Lauri–smiling and laughing–the whole world is right as rain, I tell you from my experience of you. I’ve seen you fret a few times, too, and albeit hilarious, I notice it’s not your default nature.”
When I was tempted to feel as if the current state of the universe (at least my personal corner of it), might in fact be permanent, I found these to be comforting words and an important reminder that “this too shall pass.” While it all feels a bit (a lot bit!) chaotic, as my friend also reminded me, it is all part of the process - and if there is one thing I do know – is to trust the process – no matter how bleak things might appear in the moment.
For me, the way the current state of the universe’s evolution is showing up is in the reappearance of certain vocational questions I long ago thought dead, along with an increasing sense of constriction and anxiety around certain life choices in which I am currently living. Having walked this path before, it feels as if one thing is trying to be born while another is trying to die. In the midst of this are a million unanswered questions and more than a million unknowns – all stirring an immeasurable amount of anxiety for the part of me which thinks she needs to be in control, have all the answers and always be right. Hah….silly girl!
I believe that the chaos I am currently experiencing is reflective of the chaos currently felt by many – a seemingly constant parade of choices – “pick me…..notice me….don’t pick me….you will love doing this…..this is driving you mad,” all vying for our attention and our discernment. What is life giving? What is not? What feels supportive of who we are and who God wants us to be? What feels imprisoning, rife with struggle, suffocating and blech? It seems that at this stage of our spiritual evolution, we are standing at a crossroads. Choose life. Choose death. Choose joy. Choose sorrow. Choose fulfillment. Choose frustration. Choose love. Choose fear. All the choices are before us, giving us a lived experience of what it would be like to choose any of the above. Thanks to those who have come before us, we know what it is we are being invited to choose:
“Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!”
Discernment is the skill we are invited to put into practice in navigating these choices. God’s choice is clear: CHOOSE LIFE. Unfortunately, it seems that in this moment, actual choice is NOT AN OPTION. Instead, all we have is the constant parade of choices and the opportunity to feel what each one will feel like if that would be our choice. The time right now, while not about choice, is about EXPLORATION. We are being given an opportunity to have a lived experience of what all these choices feel like so that when the time for choosing comes, we will know what we are called to choose. In the meantime, we sit within the whirlwind observing, experiencing, and TRUSTING that the great centrifuge of the universe will cast off what is not life-giving in order that we may retain the rest. In the meantime we wait, and remind our selves that the current insanity we are feeling is only temporary – and that this too shall pass.